Things change, people change, times change

I was given a reminder of my own mortality last friday, as my girlfriend's grandmother passed away. She had been bedbound in hospital for over a year, and badly demented, so I suppose it could be said to be a relief, at least for herself, to be rid of such unlife. And for all those, who remain, a time of stress and waiting is over. I just hope, that dividing her possessions between her descendants would go without bickering and malice. I fear that might not be the case, but it's still good to hope for the best.

Much remains to be done, that I haven't had the time for, or the energy. I managed to finish the katana sword-stand I was making for a friend, and that will improve my financial status somewhat.

I've been thinking about the future lately, too.

It is becoming obvious, that architecture isn't really my thing. I've studied it since '96 but the last 6 years I haven't done practically anything. Now the courses are getting old, and I have to do something about it in the next couple of years. I'm still too far from my degree to finish in time, and, in fact I really don't have the want to do it.

I have been thinking about applying to the Theater Academy, but it's really hard to get in. Less than 1% of the applicants make it. I've also thought about returning to industrial design studies, and maybe somehow combining them with the past architectural studies, not to throw them away.. But still, I really would like to be an actor.

I've also been thinking of joining the UN peacekeeping troops for a year.. mostly to improfe my financial situation and to allow my girlfriend to study freely for a year, not having to worry about getting a job. Also, the thought of joining has been in and out of my mind many times before, and I think it's just something I might have to do, not to regret not having done it afterwards.

For more news about things to happen, I'm getting married next summer. I don't think it will change much since we've been engaged for three years and living together for two and a half.. so much of the everyday things remain the same.

It still pisses me off like a bug in the pants that I don't have enough money to buy a decent digital camera. I have a craving need to take pictures and I'm in total agony since I have just an ordinary film camera. I also need to take photos of my projects (such as the sword stand) before they are taken away, so that I'll have something I can show of them.

I had to go to the dentist, again. Bedides having a large cavity filled, I was poked in one of my wisdom teeth by the dentist and the word "hollow" was mentioned. So, they are going to yank it out of my mouth in a month or so. I'm glad the tooth isn't aching, at least for now.

I SO hate dentists. But having a seen a few people with really bad teeth, I'll ljust swallow it and suffer the operations. Having teeth rot in your mouth is something I don't want to happen to myself, despite the dislike of dentalwork.

That's all for now.. more later, perhaps.